This past weekend I attended a ladies retreat with my church. I had been looking forward to it for months. Retreats, like summer youth camp are unique experiences. You go to a different location, usually on the lake or river, leave your day to day commitments and sleep in bunk bed. (or actually just lay in the the bed cause not much sleeping goes on) Days are filled with fun activities, hanging out with friends, eating junk food and story telling way into the night. The best part of the camp/retreat is the opportunity for worship, focusing on the Lord and listening to what God wants to reveal to you. Through the years, I have left these camps and retreats on a spiritual high. I am excited to get back home and to tell everyone what I learned and share all that I experienced. I have used word like: awesome, super, and great to describe it.
But this time it is a little different for me. I don't have a desire to tell the world all the details going through my head about this weekend. Maybe it is fear that people will not share my enthusiasm or even make fun of me for being so emotional and being a "Jesus freak". Maybe, it is just selfishness or pride. But I hope part of it is maturity.
Sure, the weekend was awesome, super, great.....but those words seem so simple an inadequate to describe the work God did in my life this weekend. God did speak to me in a mighty way and what he told me was life changing stuff.... so beautiful, so special, so unique, so intimate....it is just between me and God. He revealed some deep truths and honestly, I am still trying to process it all. I know one one day I may share some details. But for a little longer, I don't want to come down from this spiritual high. I also don't want to simplify the experience by describing it as just a cool, great weekend. I want to savor every moment of it. I am desperate to press these truths into my heart so deep that I will never forget them. I want to remember this weekend as a cherished gift from my Lord. Our God is a giver and has an abundance of gifts He wants to give all of us. And like all God gifts, when we accept them... everything changes.......
" ...but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 6:23
